Yearofhealth2023の日記, 2023年 07月 24日

PRE-OP APPT-post visit. Met with dr. Agha in Newport Beach. I asked him if he was scared after looking at my very sharpei limbs 😂😂😂. He has seen much worse. Ive been so riddled with anxiety and now, post visit, am much calmer. Hubs got the same feeling. This doc has seen and done surgeries like this a million times but for me this is scary. It’s a complicated surgery because we are doing lower body and arms at same time and there is some revision work to be done around a big scar i have from 2007. Im keeping my expectations dialed down but super hopeful he will exceed my expectations. He is a very confident and kind man upon initial meeting. Great first impression. Also, IVE had several surgeries for different issues in the past (hip for example) and have never had such a thorough written work up and the protocol he has pre-surgery and post surgery is detailed and requires a lot of good nutrition. (More protein more protein-he said this is NOT the time to be counting calories) MOST SHOCKING he said i should gain 5 pounds (which hubs has been telling me to stop losing 10 pounds ago) that i am too skinny. I dont see it - thats my body dysmorphia talking. So odd. I can look in the mirror and know i have a pretty face (please dont be mean if anyone is reading this) but cannot look from waist down and see what others see. Been fighting with this for decades. I wear between a size 2 and a size 4. Im so tall I KNOW thats really thin and I’ve always been a curvy girl and yet…im hoping with the excess skin gone (tho it wont be all of it as that would be another surgery which i most likely wont do) i will be able to see what my hubs and daughter and friends see. So weird because I’ve always been a super confident and competent woman, very sure of myself. Conundrum. That is a look inside my messy head. Doc also said i most definitely need to not worry about calories for next 4-6 weeks while healing i need to worry about getting enough protein for healing. What that means is that hubs and i are going out to an awesome restaurant in corona Del Mar (so fancy) and im not going to cut my fish in half im going to EAT. Feels so weird. SUPER——-SUPERGAINZ im going to feel decadent eating like you (sort of). I feel confident i am in the right hands even though those hands are crazy expensive. Justbananas if you happen to see this post HELLLLLOOOOOO sort of neighbor (for next 30 days anyway).

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754 kcal

脂質: 36.88g | たんぱく質: 43.62g | 炭水化物: 48.84g.   朝食: Orgain protein powder, Baking powder, Swans Down Cake Flour, Chocolate Chips, Maple Grove Farms Pure Maple Syrup, Bananas, Vanilla Extract, Salt, Egg. 夕食: Crystal Farms Shredded Cheddar Cheese, Fresh & Easy Liquid Egg Whites. 軽食/その他: Atkins Protein Wafer Crisps Chocolate Crème, Atkins Protein Wafer Crisps Chocolate Crème. もっと...