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Well, I did it. I went in and changed my Goal Weight back UP to 195! Got to go through the incremental weight-loss goals again to get back down to where I can put my "ultimate" goal of 165. I was SOOO close in the spring, at 172.8! Now, I'm 206.5. So, my first "new" goal is to get solidly into the 190's, then I'll make it 185, then 175, THEN back down to 165.
I forgot to weigh before breakfast yesterday, so I was thankful when I was down a pound this morning. Have to make the Chocolate Bar Cake for Thanksgiving today. I'm only going to put nuts on one-fourth or less of it (which will keep me from eating so much - the only desserts I eat WITHOUT nuts are tapioca pudding and cheesecake).
I don't feel like doing ANYTHING today. It is raining, which is making my knees hurt even WORSE than they have been. I HATE how whiney and complainey I've become lately! My mind plays a constant loop of negativity. I catch myself several times a day - scores of times - and try to self-correct.
Psychiatrist appointment in two weeks, at which time he'll take me OFF of one medicine and start me on another one. Hopefully, that will help! And, hopefully the one he wants to put me on is covered by my insurance and I won't have to go through a patient assistance program to apply for it (as was the case with the lasts two he prescribed). I'm THANKFUL that they DO have such programs available, though, and that we make NOT-ENOUGH so that we are able to qualify to receive help.
Very stressful situation continues with my daughter, and our live-in has really started getting on my nerves lately. In March, he will have been here for two years.
Well, that cake isn't going to bake itself! To bake, or to go back to bed - that is the question!
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